Thursday, January 1, 2015

Remember to Remember

Early in the month of December, I sat down and began to make some New Year’s Resolutions. See, my forte in life is dreaming and formulating ideas for the future. My weakness in life is forgetfulness. I get distracted easily and so my prayers, dreams, and plans often get lost and forgotten along with all my other good intentions. One good defense against this weakness of mine is writing. When I write things down it’s harder for me to forget them and even if I do forget them, I at least have a posted sticky note stuck to my desk or my computer to remind me in the event that I do forget.

I thrive off of alarms and posted sticky notes. If not for posted notes, I swear I wouldn't remember to do anything at my workplace. The moment the request comes in I write it down on my notepad or make a note of it and stick it to my computer. Something more urgent inevitably comes up each and every day so I rely on those reminders to help me refocus and complete every single task that’s thrown at me. The other day, I realized how much I need daily, hourly reminders not just for my paid occupation but for all of life.

And it’s not just the little reminders for the little tasks at hand that I need to improve upon; it’s simply taking time each and every day to remember. Whenever I sit down with my Bible and journal, I usually have this mentality of, “Okay, now it’s time to learn something.” And while there is so much of God’s Word that I don’t completely understand, most of it I do understand…I simply forget. I guess it’s fair to say that one of my New Year’s Resolutions this year is to take time to remember.

Another one of my New Year’s Resolutions this year is to resurrect this blog and by resurrect I mean resurrect. It’s going to be the same blog, but at the same time it’s going to be a whole new blog. Part of this is simply because I’m a new person. I’m not the same person as I was last year. The fundamentals of who I am and what I love have not changed, but where I am in life and what I need to write about has changed and so naturally this blog has to change along with that.

As I sat down and wrestled over the question of what I needed to do with this blog, I finally came to the conclusion that the best thing I could do with this blog would be to turn it into one giant posted sticky note for my life, a big fat whopping reminder of who I am in Christ and what Jesus has done and is doing in my life. I want to be specific and real. I want it to be full of God’s Word. And I want to escape the hypocrisy and pride of all of the pious and vague goals I’ve made for myself in the past. Instead I want to be bold and poignant in confronting my sin and approaching Jesus.

Our Pastor is constantly exhorting us to be as specific as we possibly can when praying to God. It’s one thing to ask God, “Lord, help me glorify you.” It’s another thing to ask God to kill that specific sin that is hindering you from loving that particular unlikable person. Being specific is scary because God answers prayer and I know that for me I often want to appear pious and godly and so I say things like, “God help me to glorify you in everything I say and do” but I’m not willing to take that one selfish action or those selfish thoughts and words and lay them on the altar before God.

Being specific and bold in my prayers doesn't simply root out my pride and sin, it ultimately encourages me. When it feels like God isn't doing anything in my life, it’s usually because I simply don’t notice everything that He is doing because I'm not paying attention. When my life feels stagnant, it’s not because Jesus isn't moving. It’s usually because I’m not taking the time to actually see everything He is doing in my life. And even in the times when God calls me to wait on Him and have patience, I still need to remember and trust in His faithfulness.

This blog is simply one means I hope to utilize. While speaking of praying boldly and specifically, I’m convicted of my need to make bold specific goals for my life. I feel pretty good about myself when I resolve to do things like “be a better person” and “be better at loving people” without actually thinking through the implications of these aspirations. I know I still don’t fully understand the cost of loving others and obeying Jesus but I know that it’s expensive. It takes the sacrifice of time and energy and making someone else’s desires my own desires. Ultimately, remembering to love others begins with remembering to love and obey Jesus each and every day.

2 comments :

  1. Good to see you here. Thanks for the post. ^.^

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  2. "Bold and specific" - this is exactly what I needed to read; even if I didn't know it. I need to be more specific with my prayers too - I often leave too much wiggle room.

    Thanks for this post! I can't wait to see what new life you bring to this blog. <3

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